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Just a blog where I can share my thoughts.

6 months since the last post.
But here I am again.
“Monster, how shud I feel?
Creatures lie here, lookin thru the window” - a line from Meg & Dia’s song Monster. How often do u feel like that? That there’s sumtin, that lies just outside ur room staring at u. Ur so scared that ur asking for help from a monster, from sumtin, that has always terrorized ur life. Ur asking for help from the last thing u wud’ve ever thought. Now ur thinking how u ended up in this situation.
Life never asks whos life to fuck up next. No wars can be won without losing any men, no-one can live a good life without sumbody else suffering. That’s how it goes. But still life gives a break for the warriors, for those, who really fight and never give up. That’s why u see many rich kids get fucked up later, coz they haven’t been fighting for their life.
Life is like a gladiator fight, and God is the emperor. If u fight good, u become famous and make a name fo yaself. if u fight bad, well, u either join God, or the monster down below.

Peace n love everybody, am out.

So wassup people? How ya doin’? I’m pretty good, tired after the last weekend (and I wasn’t partyin or anythin’).

Love huh? Show love, get love, right?  I guess that’s how it works. Or maybe not. Just go ahead and figure it out. But one thing I can tell u for sure: we ain’t nuttin’ without love. Love just simply makes the world go round. Sum minority might live alone, but they also got love fo sumtin. fo sure. Everybody else, including u, are dependent on other people. We ain’t shit without eachother. So cut the bullshit sayin ”no one likes me”, fuck u bitch u know as well as I do a lot of people like u. Love u. If ur looking for attention join acircus or sumtin, quit playin with other people’s feelings, aight? We do love u, we do care bout u. We just can’t be there for u all the time in person. U know mentally we are always with u. No matter what happens. That’s called love. So if we tell u to quit whining all the time bout how fucked up ur day was, it doesnt mean that we dont care, it means, that we’re fucked up coz u can’t see anybody else but u. Did u ever ask me how my day was? Well fuck u then.

Always love urself, but dont forget bout others. Dont forget, that they got problems too.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

So ssup? No need to apologize to anyone for being late, ain’t nobody but me readin dis.
Love yourself, love yourself the most. It doesn’t matter what others say, u are the most important person in ur life. It’s ur life. Of course there should be a limit to that love, coz too much of anything is always no good. Always remember everybody around u, but never forget bout urself. How can u love somebody else, if u can’t love urself? So spending time on urself is not wrong , it’s only for good. People can tell u anything, but in the end u are the one who makes the decision. Give urself time. Love urself. Care bout urself. Life is complicated and tangled, it’s possible that sumday u will be the only on u have. peace and love everybody, am out.

I’m back wiriting my blog. Pretty soon compared to other posts right? I had a comment on last post that still at least one person reads my blog. Really appriciate that. Hopefully u’r not the only one.

Do u sometimes feel like u aint got time ? Do u feel stressed? Do u feel like the world is always moving forward, and if u slow down only for a minute, u’d fall off and could never get back?  Shiet. U don’t even have time to drink ur coffe, don’t u? Always having a cup with u, but never really sitting down in a cafe just to drink it. And then u complain how grey and boring the world is. Open ur eyes bitch. World is full of amazing and beautiful things. They’re just waiting for u to find them. Many of these things have been waiting for years. Decades. Forever. And probably they will be waiting ’till infinity. Just think about, for example, stars. They’ve been even before the Earth, and they’re still up there ! And u know it.  U know that every night after sunset the stars are again at the sky. But have u anytime really looked at them? Those who have, they know that they are beautifull, amazing, romantic. Everything at the same time. And basicly the stars haven’t changed at all. Billiones of years, and they are still the same. And just so u know, there’s so many other things, just waiting to be discovered. So if u quit from running, and just stop for a moment, u’ll see them for sure. Just like… stop for a moment.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

haaha heey wassup? Couple of months since my last blog, ain’t that nice. I hope u guys are not mad at me. Shiet nobody even reads this so why am I even asking. anyways.

I assume all of you have friends, right? yeah of course you do. What would we do without them? We all need friends, coz almost every one of us just can’t live without friends, you also. I bet you never thought about that. But really think about it, besides of family, friends is all we really need. Real friends won’t betray you, they will help you if they can, they’ll have your back always. They have always loved you, and they always will love you, aint no ways around it. So they give a lot of love to us, but what are we giving back? Depends on you of course. But truly, the only right thing we can give, is also love. They give a lot of love, and we give a lot of love back. Of course they will be happy if u give them some fancy presents, but they will  be truly thankfull if you just show them your love.

Friends is something unique, something indescribable. We gotta hold on to that. Better to have more friends than enemies, right? All relationships come and go, different hobbies come and go, different people come and go, different jobs come and go, but friends… Friends are forever. Friends always care. Always. I won’t survive without friends, and nor will probably you.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

Ey merry christmas to everybody! sorry for coming out late! got nice presents huh? I thought about writing a ”positive” blog for this time, just becose its christmas. u know guys my last blogs were kinda negative and dark so maybe I’ll put sum light to this one.

Snowing, people walking down the street with big bags full of all kinda cool stuff, streets full of red and green and blue lights, everybody happy and smiling. What it might be? Gotta be christmas. I dont know is it somekinda magic or sumtin but it really seems to me that on christmas people seem to be kinder and happier. who knows what is it. I actually felt also that I saw an christmas miracle. I know one guy, craziest person I have ever met maybe, he just cant concentrate on anything. so yeah I saw him wishin merry christmas to everybody, all calm and relaxed, and he would be the last person I wud expect to care about christmas. But it still happened. Well, I hope u all saw somekinda miracle, after all, we all deserve one. Not depending by our race or religion, we all deserve at least one miracle, at least one.

Merry Christmas to all of you! Wish you all the best.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

Eeyy ssup ya’ll? Long time no see. Id want to say that I was busy so I couldnt write here in a while, but really I was just lazy. Been watchin tv lately?

Talkin bout tv, do u every think, that celebreties have a wonderfull life? I think we all think like dat at least sometimes. And isnt it funny when u hear celebreties always talkin about how hard their life is and its really not that easy as everyone thinks? Yeah sure it is hard when u live in a 10 million $ house and u have 5 cars in a garage, but u dont really use any of them cuz u have a limo with a driver. But let me tell u sumtin: if they say its hard, it really is. After all, its their life we’re talkin about, so they know the best. Dont u ever feel like ur life is hard, but everyone else says ur life is easy? In these situations I always think, how the fuck do they know. What we’re talkin about here is personalities, we all have one, and everyone is different. Someone might say that his life is really easy, but if u wud be in his position, u wud be workin ur ass off all the time. Its ur own life, u are the one who knows whether or not its easy or hard. We all got our own shoes, and they can only fit ourselves. Mine shoes wudnt fit u, and ur shoes wudnt fit me either. Someone can be happier with nothing than someone else with everything.

Remember, its all about how u see urself, not how they want to see u.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

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Hello there again. Its been a while since we talk last. I went to St. Petersburg last week, damn it is a nice city, really beautiful city. Too many cars though.

prejudices, we all have them. We always had them and we will always have them. Its the human nature. We cant change the fact that we have them, but we can change them. We all like different things, we’re all from different families, we all have different habits. But if I aint like u, does it make me a bad person? Some of us might love video games, and people will call them nerds even if they dont know them. Those ”nerds” might be a great company, but no one gives them a try. Or some of us might love flowers and trees and the whole nature, and people will call them hippies and think that they smoke weed and make boycotts and all that shit. Or we have prejudices when we see how the other one lookes. If u hate rap music and u see a guy with a big shirt and a fitted cap, u might not even want to talk with him, and he might a great guy. We all have faced different prejudices towards ourselves, sometimes we might not be proud of them. Some of us might be offended by them. Some of us might not have friends at all, just because of them. Its not wrong to have prejudices, but many times we could just forget about them, and just live with other people. Like Ive said before, we’re all the same.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

Ssup ya’ll? Have any worries?  Need an advise or any other help? In that case u can go fuck yourself. Naah just kidding, just kidding. But anyways really got any questions or something, feel free to ask them in the comment section.

Okaii today I went to Stockman to buy some food. I was actually surprised how akward I felt when I saw men walking in suites and ties etc. U know the rich people. Okay Im not that poor either, but still for some reason I felt really akward there. And I started to think, I have clothes and I know that I always have some food in my fridge u know, and still I feel akward with these people. How do feel those, who really don’t have shit? Seriously. There are people in the world, whose daily income is lower than 1$ US. Imagine urself in that position, imagine that u have a family to feed, and all u getting is less than 30$ US per month. Imagine that u dont have all your fancy clothes, imagine that u dont have this computer that u are using right now. Now when u look into ur fridge, most of u have food in there all the time. But imagine, that everytime u open it, its empty. Imagine that u actually cant even afford a fridge.  There’s some people, that dont pick up a coin if they see one, they think that its just a coin. For someone one coin might be a fortune. So please, next time u see for example Red Cross collecting money for something, give them at least a little bit. Coz u know, its the little things that can change the world.

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

Heey how u doin guys? Sorry for being out for so long time, I was lil bit busy.

Listen guys, when you look at the people, what do u see? Do u see big grey mass of humans trying to push eachother away, or do u see a community, where everybody’s trying to help one another? When u look at ur city, do u see big grey buildings, or do u see a colorfull place? When it comes to people, I see all different kinda faces, nationalities, races, sizes and, most importantly, personalities. Might sound strange, but at the same time we’re just the same and everybody’s different. Being the same means, we all live in the same place and we all should have the same rights, no one is better than another. Everybody’s different means, that we all look different, act different, everyone has their own habtis and opinions, their own way of life. We must have respect to eachother. We must love eachother. If everyone could get along with everybody else, the world would be much better place to live. Love is gonna save the world, not hate. Forget about asians and africans and europeans and all those, we’re all humans. We’re all the same, but at the same time everybody’s different.

”Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate;only love can do that.”

- Martin Luther King

Peace & Love everybody, am out.

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